The Egg Drop Post

‘Tis the Season to be Fertile, Fa La La La Laa, La, La, La, La!”

This is the jingle I’ve been singing around our house since last Friday’s IUI. It was actually a very good experience, even better than my last IUI at the new clinic and I have to admit I was a bit surprised. Everyone was so nice and the nurse who did the IUI was so pleasant. The sperm count was hearty and after the procedure, I was able to rest and listen to a meditation tape for 30 uninterrupted minutes, which was a personal best! When I left the snowflakes were just beginning to fall, and even though I don’t usually love the snow, the effect made me feel like something magical was happening. Let’s hope so.

All in all, it was a good year. I made some new friends in the blogosphere, changed my doctor, and fell deeper in love with my wife. I’m looking forward to next year, when there will be more pregnancies, babies, and awards.

Tomorrow, Nadia and I are blasting off to her South American homeland. I can’t wait. It will be a wonderful distraction from the TWW jitters and what lies ahead for me if this natural cycle IUI doesn’t work.

Happy Holidays everyone. See you next year!

Don’t you just love A. Ged.de?
How cute is this photo?

I can only hope that this is what is going on inside of me right now. I am feeling the ovulation pain. No pain, no gain, right?

Two more weeks to go. Ugh!

“You will be pleasantly surprised soon.”

I have been trying not to get my hope’s up because the let down is so brutal. I mean when AF comes not only do I have to deal with the disappointment but I also have to get myself back into the stirrups and start the whole egg drop drama from scratch.

But when I opened the fortune cookie tonight I was pleasantly surprised and it really made me feel a glimmer of hope.

I don’t actually feel pregnant but I know that that feeling is neither scientific nor definitive.

We’ll see.

This is my sixth TWW and I know that for a lot of you, I sound like a spoiled whiner, but it’s just brual.

Today I had lunch with an old friend who hadn’t seen me in a while. When she saw, me she immediately said, “Hey, you look pale, are you alright?”

My eyes started to shine with glee.

She asked, “are you okay? Um, yes, I said I think there is a flu bug going around my office.” My response was a bit strange because I answered her with a big goofy smile-not typical of someone who has the flu.

Looking pale is not easy for a black girl. So maybe, just maybe, this is a good sign, right? I’m feeling slightly feverish today but since I don’t chart, it is hard for me to be sure what all of this really means.

Tick tock.

6dpo

I am experiencing extreme fatigue. And I do mean extreme. No matter how much sleep I get I can’t get enough rest… but it could just be the menopur.

Tick tock.

Today is 5dpo and I really don’t have anything remarkable to report. I don’t feel anything. Oneofhismoms says that she felt pain during days 6, 7 and 8 of the injectible cycle she got pregnant, so there is still plenty of hope.

I am trying not to obsess about every minor twinge or pang. And I’ve decided that I won’t do an early test.

I am learning a lot about patience this cycle and, remarkably, I feel calm. Maybe it is the aromatherapy?

I am not in a very good mood today.

You see, I was never very good at waiting. When I was young, I used to shake the gifts under the Christmas tree and beg to open one early. My mother never relented. I would wake up before 5am on Christmas morning and I always had to wait until at least 6am. Then, we were required to make ourselves presentable for Dad’s photo shoot. It was excrutiating. Then, finally, I would be allowed to open my gifts.

As an adult, I have to admit I have not gotten much better. In fact, one could argue that I am actually worse. You see, Nadia and I always open our gifts before Christmas morning. Sometimes we make it to Christmas Eve night, but last year, I think we unwrapped our gifts the day before Christmas Eve.

So, I am really having a hard time with TWW. I have about 9780 minutes left until I will allow myself to test. And even though I could test early, I want to give myself the best chance of getting a conclusive result. Even though I am trying to distract myself, I still find waiting very hard.

Reading other blogs in the sphere does help pass the time, though.