Mommies Here!

I feel off the wagon pretty hard last week, it was completely by accident (I just unexpectedly wasn’t near a computer post-turkey day) but I have to admit once I got over my initial guilt about missing one day of National Blog Posters Month, I felt pretty good. I enjoyed my freedom this past week. I guess what I discovered by accident is that I needed a little break.

And a thousand kisses to those of you who write to inquire about how I am. This blog world means so much to me.

The break itself was helpful because it allowed me to stop writing about the TTC I think I felt pressure to write stuff, even if I really had nothing important to say. And then, of course, I started to stupidly believe that it would determine if I would be a good parent or not. Thank God I fell down the rabbit whole last week and was able to come to my senses.

Now just because I stopped writing doesn’t mean that my TTC obsession went away. It is quite the contrary. In the past few days, I have spent countless hours watching Birth Day on the Discovery Health Channel. It’s quite addictive. I highly recommend it if you are recovery from surgery.

In other news, Nadia and I have attended some adoptive parenting classes. As a break from the TTC, we are checking out various adoptive agencies in the city to see which ones are queer friendly. Any advice from who know would be helpful. She would like to adopt an older child (above 10 years of age) and I am undecided, quite frankly. We are not planning to adopt for at least a couple of years, so this is just an information gathering stage. Hopefully, it will lead to hours and hours of fruitful discussion.

Ah, the joys of marriage.

Next week I will have my second (very painful) saline sonogram to see if there I have any scarring on my uterus from the surgery.

And, I will, of course, keep you posted.

I am really taking this November writing challenge very seriously and I am not sure why. I think that I just need to prove to myself that I can do it, but it is sooo hard.

I hate feeling boxed in by expectation. On the other hand, I’ve convinced myself that if I can do this I will be a reliable parent. I know that my logic is extremely faulty but I determined to blog everyday this month no matter how insipid or boring my entry may be.

I can’t think of a think to write, so I won’t bore you. I am not feeling very interesting today. It’s hard to feel interesting when all you are doing is waiting or thinking about the wait.

I can’t even make up a good egg drop drama. I just know that waiting sucks. And I am a bit tired of it but I have a few more months to go.

I am trying to get used to waiting.

Wow! My committment issues are really popping up in the face of NaBloPoMo.

I don’t have the energy (damn my recovery!) to be interesting right now, but I promise to explore my issues in an upcoming post.

But I do feel good about the fact that I am honoring my committment.

Visit NaBloPoMo

Today is the start of National Blog Posters Month which means that I have committed to posting to my blog everyday for the month of November. Yikes!

Thank God that I have been working out my commitment issues in therapy for the last umpteen years.

In addition to joining NaBoPoMo I have also made a personal commitment to myself to incorporate more graphics into the site because I think it looks a little dull. For a technologically challenged Egg Drop Drama Queen like myself this quite an undertaking, so hold on to your hats folks!

More to Come…

The trick for me this Halloween is to keep my focus. Thanks to Cali, this morning I decided to participate in NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month), which means I will post on my blog every day for the month of November.

This is not an easy task. I know this will challenge me because I have tried to do this before. I just often seem to run out of steam, become insecure–thinking that no one will find me interesting. More often than not, I just run of time. At any rate, I am going to try this time to be a woman of my word at least for a month. That’s not so hard, right?

And here’s my Treat…
So I incorporated many of your suggestions into my thinking this Halloween and I decided to be an Egg Head. For those of you who know me, it’s not very original, I know.

;=)