Fertilization Report: Not Good
I got a call from my doctor this morning who began the convesation by saying, “I wish I had good news to share.”
Well, you know that that’s never a good way to start a fertilization report. In fact, as a soon as I heard my doctor’s voice, I said to myself, “Oh, shit” because I was really expecting a pro forma update from one of the nursing staff.
I responded with “Oh?”
Turns out that of the 18 eggs they retrieved yesterday, 8 were mature. The tried to fertilize them all with ICSI and none of them took. So as of right now, I have zero embies to transfer.
He said that I still had 10 immature eggs and that they would be mature by this afternoon (who knew?). The plan is that they will try to fertilize those 10 eggs and see what happens. I expect to hear the verdict tomorrow morning.
When I asked him what went wrong, he said my situation was baffling. According to him, it is rare that someone would produce so many eggs and that none of them would be viable. His parting words were “I’ve seen this type of scenario lead a successful pregnancy,” but from the sound of his voice, things don’t look good.
I feel very disappointed and stupid. Disappointed for obvious reasons; another one bites the dust? Stuipd because I allowed myself to be really, really hopeful yesterday. I was on such a high yesterday and now I’m feeling so low.
Of course, I’ll let you know what happens, and thanks again for all your support.
Oh, that’s crushing. I’m so sorry & so disappointed for & with you that none of the 8 fertilized. Try not to go too far with “stupid,” though, my friend. You had such good news yesterday, it would have been silly NOT to get excited. Of course you got really hopeful. It wasn’t stupid. Sending lots of love and lots and lots of maturity vibes to the 10. Will be checking back in. Love.
1Oh no! I’ll be sending so many positive and maturing vibes to those 10 remaining eggies! Don’t feel stupid, yesterday was an exciting and hopefully day.
2Oh Eva. I’m sorry it looks so dark right now, after yesterday being so hopeful. I hope that good things happen with the potential 10 and that you have a lot of love and support around you… no matter what the outcome.
3I’m so sorry. How awful. I really hope it turns around and some of the eggs end up fertilizing.
4SHIT! I’m so sorry. There is still hope for the other 10 and you are in my thoughts and prayers that good things come from those.
5so so sorry eva… i hope that the others will mature and things turnaround a bit. will be sending you lots of fertilizing vibes.
6xo mulberry
Thinking of you, and hoping.
7ugh, ugh, UGH. what a roller coaster. i’m so sorry the news wasn’t so good today after being great yesterday. i’ll be thinking of you and hoping for those other 10! please take good care of yourself; it’s not stupid to be hopeful or happy.
8I am so very sorry. This is disappointing, but it ain’t over. It’s absolutely not stupid to have been hopeful with yesterday’s news. Today’s news is a set back but there is still hope. We’re all here for you to keep hope alive for ya! Many many hugs!
9I’m so sorry.
10I’m so sorry. I hope they get something! Hugs.
11You are not stupid. I am still hopeful.
Love you.
12It is so hard not to feel as if we should have known–but we really can’t. Being anxious yesterday wouldn’t have made this any less crushing today.
13shitshitshitshit. This is sad and shitty.
Eva, I cannot even imagine the feelings that are running through you right now. Going from one of the highest highs to the disappointment of today. I know it feels completely hopeless right now, but it isn’t over yet and I’m here hoping for you that something turns around in your favor. This entire IVF/IF process is like putting all of your feelings into a blender, turning it on and wondering what it will be like when it pours out of you.
14I hope I see you on Sunday if you are feeling better–I’d love to give you a real live hug. Until then, feel my virtual hug coming on through the internet.
Thinking of you.
Oh, NO!! I really hope things turn around tomorrow. Hoping hard for you!
15omg i’m so sorry. i have no words but love love love and hugs
16IVF is so hard and reports like these make it harder. I hope those other little ones mature up a bit and let some sperm in.
17Devastating news. So sorry. I hope the remaining eggs pull something out of the bag for you.
18I am shocked!! And so so so so effing bummed and sorry. Oh honey. I just hurt for you. Beaming SO MUCH LOVE your way. SO much. And willing with all my might that those ten catch up and shine as superstars.
19xoxoxo