Sigh of Relief

21st October 2008

posted in Cancer, Nadia |

Well, we got some good news last week. I am feeling relieved, though still stressed as hell about Nadia’s cancer. I am over the shock and starting to feel a little bit pissed about the whole thing, but I am still functional.

Nadia remains completely functional (almost hyper functional) and fearless or delusional, depending on how you look at it. The only reason why I say she might be sort of ‘delusional’ is because she doesn’t seem phased by it.I think that part of it is because she doesn’t have any symptoms. But, if it were me, I would be under my bed, with torn clothes, shaking and screaming ‘why?’ but she hasn’t done any of that. I think that she has the right attitude to beat this thing so I don’t want to bring her down, but I can’t exactly relate. Then again, maybe I don’t need to.

Anyhoo, we went to see a surgeon who told us that she would definitely recover from the c-word. She will have surgery next month and then radiation about two months later, but he was extremely positive and upbeat. He was very soothing. We left his office feeling a bit high.

Whew!

I was feeling pretty good about what I had read online about papillatory thryoid cancer but, of course, nothing beats hearing a verdict from a seasoned medical professional. He spoke with confidence and looked her directly in the eye. We loved him but I also scheduled another consultation with another doctor tomorrow. I’ve been in love with doctor’s before. I need results. We need to have someone to compare him to. I wish I had done that when selecting an RE, instead of just following the suggstion of my gyno. But I need to move on…

The interview process will start all over again, when we have to select an endocrynologist to administer Nadia’s radiation treatment, but we will cross that bridge when we come to it.

Needless to say, the TTC journey is on the back burner, indefinitely. But you know me. I have to keep the fire simmering. In the meantime and between time, I am seeing a new acupuncturist who is very sweet. I am also taking Chinese herbs twice a day–yuck. Dr. Sweet remmends that women work with her for three months before they try IVF again, but that the woomen often choose to wait six months, so things might work out for me. I predict that it will take Nadia three to six months to recover completly, probably closer to three months from now, but we will see. I am keeping my fingers crossed.

Next week, Nadia and I are going to see one fertility specialist but I certainly won’t have any inseminations– not even the two natural ones I need to pay for- until she is completely fine and we can start arguing about the whole things again. Those were the days…

I am going to change my blog a little to incorporate this new develompent in my life. I love my Nadia and can’t imagine life without her, thank God I don’t have to, but the c-word is definitely now a part of my life now. I intend to blog about it consitently, now that I am over the initial shock of this nightmare.

Thanks again for all of your love and support. It means the world to me.

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1 On October 21st, 2008,

Lo said:

I am so, so glad for the good news. Looking forward to the new look.

2 On October 21st, 2008,

mulberry said:

i was thinking about you and nadia today and was going to email you to see how you guys were doing… so glad to see that things are going *well*, well given… your plan seems like a sound one. i hope that in a few short months nadia will be well and you two can debate the details of TTC again. - mulberry

3 On October 21st, 2008,

giggleblue said:

gosh, i’m happy to hear that things are looking up for your love! and i’m happy to hear that you are doctor shopping to find that right fit! i’ll be here waiting for updates when you have them. i’m sending all the best wishes in the world!

4 On October 21st, 2008,

oneofhismoms said:

Yes, dear Nadia will need all of her health and strength to argue with the likes of you.

5 On October 22nd, 2008,

inlocoparentis said:

I am impressed by your strength and resilience and thinking of you guys . . .

6 On October 22nd, 2008,

Lizzie said:

So deeply grateful for Nadia’s great prognosis and your “sigh of relief.’ I am holding the two of you in my thoughts, holding you in the light. For what it is worth, my acupuncturist would like to have three months before IVF to do herbs and get me healthy, too.

7 On October 22nd, 2008,

Co said:

I am so glad that the specialist you saw was so confident about Nadia’s ultimate recovery and that things look good. You are smart to seek a second opinion, however.

And as for TTC, yeah, it’s probably smart to put it on hold. I am not a multi-tasker myself. I personally can only handle one major life event (good or bad) at one time and give it my whole focus. I know some people (ahem… Lo) aren’t that way, but… I think it’s good to be focused.

Take care. Thinking of you both. Let us know if we can help in any way.

8 On October 22nd, 2008,

Dakota said:

Oooh I am so glad to hear the prognosis is so positive. Keeping up with the acupuncture appointments seems very wise for egg health and to address your stress during this time. (Has Nadia considered acupuncture?) Regardless, you’ll need the strength for any next rounds of loving battles.

Thinking of you both.
Sending much love.
xxxoo

9 On October 22nd, 2008,

Sista P said:

Oh my gosh, I had not checked in for a while and then I see this! what a shock, but I am happy to see that things are looking very good for Nadia.

My thoughts and prayers are with you both.

10 On October 22nd, 2008,

liberationtheory said:

you are so in my thoughts and prayers. i hope that you all get nothing but more positive news.

11 On October 22nd, 2008,

Sarah said:

I’ll miss you in the infertility conversation sphere, but I really get where you are at the choices you are making. Please keep us updated!

12 On October 23rd, 2008,

Puffer said:

I just caught up with your blog and I’m so sorry about everything that has been going on.
This does seem like a bit brighter patch of news tonight concerning Nadia. I am thinking of you both and hope for more positive news.

13 On October 23rd, 2008,