Baby Steps
I had almost finished it. It was the post about how my health insurance company totally screwed me a couple of days before my retrieval. It was almost done, in my head anyway, when I opened my inbox and saw the email.
It was an email from my embryologist with this picture of my little one, my 5-cell, day 3 A- embie. Isn’t she beautiful?
The rant post is almost completely gone (for now, anyway) and I’m in a pretty place for the moment, hoping against hope. I will find out this weekend if she took and, until then, I think, for the rest of the week, I’m gonna act like she did.
Folks have been asking me how I’m feeling and truth be told, I feel 45% optimistic, 30% pessimistic, 15% scared out of my wits and 10% exhausted. I have cramps, headaches and lower back pain, but these are exactly the same symptoms I have when I’m about to have a visit from my Aunt Flo. So who knows? Also, I’m on progesterone so my body is totally out of whack. I can’t trust myself physically right now, but I’m delighted to have this photo.
As I write this, I find myself focusing on baby steps. I’m fighting the urge to fall flat on my face, while I’m struggling to move myself forward one small step at a time.
she is a beauty!!!!
gosh, this crap brings on sooo many emotions and all at once.
keep on hanging in there!
1i know it’s hard, but you can’t stop trying. you just can’t.
2OMG! She looks just like you.
3I’m crying over here.
This better work. WORK!!!!!
The world needs more people like you, Eva.
Wow, that is a beautiful picture. We’re all pulling for you here…
4She is gorgeous!
For the record, every woman feels like she is about to get her period when she is pregnant. It’s a total mindf**k. There’s no way to know which it is.
I am still sending you sticky vibes and baby dust.
5Hoping hard for you.
6a beauty indeed! hope she sees fit to settle in and stay.
wishing you big positive results this weekend… i know the wait is SO hard, we find out on monday if we have a passenger.
7This is one good looking little embryo! I am thinking about you guys every day and can’t wait to hear some good news from you this weekend.
8What a beautiful emby. I’m pulling for you!
9what a beautiful picture!
im keeping my fingers crossed for you!
10That is such a great (and beautiful) picture. I think you have it exactly right– baby steps– 5 minutes at a time. You will get there.
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