11th August 2008

Blackjack

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I always loved playing blackjack as a kid. I was pretty good at it but I what I liked the most was the thrill of the chase. Vingt et un is still one of my favorite games to this day. I love looking into my opponent’s eyes and trying to guess if he or she is at the breaking point but, most importantly, I love to win.

So I pretty much have 21 days left until I start my IVF cycle and I’m trying to figure out what it all means. I’ve gotten wrapped up in numbers before; specifically, cycle 7 and before that cycle 5. I’m a pseudo-numerologist in training. Right now with 21 days to go it’s too early to discern the meaning of this  cycle but I am starting to feel the exhilaration and thrill that only comes when you’re pacing on uncharted terrain waiting for something big to come along. 

 I’m nervous, excited, thrilled, and scared. I’m trying to keep my wits about me and remember my ability to stay cool under pressure. They say that winning at cards is less about luck and more about tenacity and skill. I feel like I’ve been through the TTC boot camp and I’ve paid my dues. Now I’m just waiting for 21.

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  1. 1 On August 12th, 2008, Puffer said:

    Sounds like the perfect number for you to start your countdown. I hope the next three weeks go by smoothly and quickly so you can get on with it!

  2. 2 On August 12th, 2008, giggleblue said:

    i think i had the link to your old blog on my updater? no wondering i’m thinking that you haven’t updated in 3+ weeks… i’m sorry for my lateness and am getting caught up. i pray that the 21 is upon you! have you seen the movie btw? great film!

  3. 3 On August 12th, 2008, Gia said:

    love love 21 ……ahhhhhhhhhhh omg 21 days….are we freaking yet?? lol
    note it well….because if this iui is a bust…IVF here i come!!!

  4. 4 On August 12th, 2008, Kat said:

    21 was a good year from me so I hope it’s a good number for you. Lucky 21!

  5. 5 On August 13th, 2008, mulberry said:

    thrill that only comes when you’re pacing on uncharted terrain waiting for something big to come along

    i see you, big cat, long strides and searing eyes… ready to pounce on that ivf cycle and claim it for you own…

    excited to be entering ivf land with you.

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